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Still here! And recs...

I just realized that I didn't post in January at all, making that the first month in nine years that I haven't appeared here even briefly.

Let's not let that happen again.

First, a little emotional honestly: I'm a little overwhelmed at work, flist. Intellectually, I know I can do this, intellectually I know it's all going to be fine, but perhaps my long-time strategy of panicking inside but pretending everything's okay needs to be amended. ARRGH! TOO MUCH GOING ON! I'm anxious all the time and waking up at 3:00 in the morning, and maybe I should talk about that instead of keeping it all inside. It's okay to panic a bit and feel insecure, right? The key thing is keep turning the page in spite of it all.

I haven't been reading or writing or commenting much, but I'm trying hard to remember that you can't just skip important everyday things like sleep or proper meals or fannish fun in the name of Getting Things Done. Balance, balance. Breathe in, breathe out.

Second, something for you: recs!

* femslash_remix posted last week! _hannelore wrote Up in the Air (Minerva/Rolanda, rated PG, 1100 words), a remix of a story by kellychambliss about Minerva's insecurity and confusion in the face of Rolanda's infidelities; woldy wrote A Love Story in Six Baths (Minerva/Augusta, Minerva/Augusta/Frank, rated R, 1900 words), a remix of a story by cranky__crocus about the tensions in a three-way relationship between Minerva, Augusta, and Frank Longbottom (the father of the Frank we know from canon); and kellychambliss wrote Bequest (Minerva/Walburga, Minerva/Rolanda, Sirius, rated PG-13, 6000 words), a remix of a story of mine about the present-day reverberations of a youthful relationship between Minerva and Walburga Black.

I was absolutely delighted with Kelly's remix, which took a story about unspoken pain and turned it inside out by shifting the POV from reticent Remus to Minerva and Sirius, two characters who can't help speaking their mind. But all six fics are worth reading as a set, because the three new stories are very much about the therapeutic powers of remixing. All three authors chose stories about pain and difficult relationships (and Minerva McGonagall!) and turned them around by changing tone, changing the frame of reference, or even encouraging characters to intervene where they had sat silently in the original. Head on over and enjoy these!

* For those of you interested in the women of Sherlock, the Three Patch Podcast recently had an episode on femslash that includes a great list of femslash recs.

* I'm really enjoying a Sherlock WIP by splix, The Case of the Green Gown (Mary/John, Sherlock/John, rated explicit, six chapters and 37,000 words so far). Splix has done an extraordinary job setting up this mesmerizing story--there's both a case for Sherlock to solve involving a deadly green gown and an equally compelling mystery for the reader: how, nine years on from BBC canon, did Sherlock and John's relationship become so distant and strained? Given what I know of ACD canon and Splix's past fic, I believe this story is headed towards Sherlock/John, but it's remarkable right now for a beautiful, nuanced, realistic depiction of tension within John and Mary's loving but troubled marriage. Mary's just exquisitely drawn. Splix is posting regularly and can be depended on to finish WIPs, so please go enjoy this one!

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Feb. 4th, 2015 02:31 pm (UTC)
Oh, trust me, I DO know the feeling of being overwhelmed at work. Is this a change that has been made recently? A new event/problem? Or what is going on?
Feb. 4th, 2015 05:25 pm (UTC)
It's just a lot of work and a lot of deadlines right now, B, as well as some more-public-than-usual speaking, which always stresses me out. *sigh* Thanks for the comment, though. Onward and upward! M.
Feb. 4th, 2015 04:25 pm (UTC)
Sorry work is overwhelming. I hope you can see your way clear to a resolution soon.

Thank you for the lovely rec! :)
Feb. 4th, 2015 05:30 pm (UTC)
Thanks re: work, S. It's just deadlines and a little too much on my plate at once.

I'm enjoying the Green Gown so much! (Sorry I haven't commented over at AO3--for some reason, I lurk over there, even though I'm chatty here.) I think I could eavesdrop on John and Mary's marriage forever, you've done such a lovely job showing the love and familiarity as well as the friction and difference. They're both such fully realized, adult characters. Looking forward to the next installment! M.
Feb. 5th, 2015 12:41 pm (UTC)
Hang in there! It's tough when you're in the middle of it but it feels great when you finally break through.

Aw, bless you. I'm having a wonderful time writing it. More soon!
Feb. 4th, 2015 09:27 pm (UTC)
Yes, it is okay to panic and feel insecure! You said it: it's important to get it out and not let it fester inside. Use LJ to vent, if that helps at all. Here's to things easing up for you at work soon so that you can let go of some of the stress and anxiety.

I'm awake at 3 am most nights too. Don't know what it is about 2:30-4 am, but I rarely sleep through the entire night without waking up for a spell.

I hope you're able to fit in more fannish fun! It is hard finding that work/life/fun balance, isn't it? But so necessary. I'm enjoying Splix's story too!
Feb. 4th, 2015 10:12 pm (UTC)
Thanks, W. *hugs* Re: 2:30 to 4:00, me, too! And it's so frustrating, because I used to be such a champion sleeper. Now I'm all about having some hot water and trying to coax myself back into slumber.

I'm reading so little fic right now--the HP fest I mentioned above and splix's, really--but I've been enjoying it to no end. Escapism? Maybe. But it's certainly helping.

Are you back on your feet and feeling better? Those snow pictures your posted were amazing. M.

Feb. 5th, 2015 12:35 am (UTC)
It's okay to panic a bit and feel insecure, right? The key thing is keep turning the page in spite of it all.

For sure! And if you can't panic here among friends, where can you?
Feb. 12th, 2015 12:18 am (UTC)
Thanks for saying that, D. I was raised to stay quiet if I didn't have anything positive to say, but sometimes the repression is a little much, even for me! M.
Feb. 5th, 2015 04:31 am (UTC)
So sorry to hear about the work issues. I know the feeling, and how tense all over it gets one. All the best!
Feb. 12th, 2015 12:16 am (UTC)
Thanks for the reassurance, TRS! *deep breaths* M.
Feb. 5th, 2015 11:50 am (UTC)
*hug* Equally overwhelmed. Hope we both get freed from the worry and stress soon...
So good to see you!
Feb. 12th, 2015 12:15 am (UTC)
*big hugs* Miss you much-ly, C! Hang in there! M.
Feb. 5th, 2015 05:17 pm (UTC)
Panic is normal and okay. (If it's not, then I know an awful lot of people who are abnormal and not okay /g/).

Thanks for the rec!
Feb. 12th, 2015 12:15 am (UTC)
Thanks for the reassurance, K. And again, a great fic! M.
Feb. 5th, 2015 07:47 pm (UTC)
Really enjoyed your overview comments on the Femslash Remix stories, maggie. It's like listening to a really good conference discussant find themes in your work and overlaps with other's work that you hadn't consciously identified :-)

Also, that panic and fretting? If it's not normal then I don't know what is. Two Associate Profs I respect told me this week that in their experience if you act like you know what you're doing then other people think you do, & they're both people who give the impression of completely knowing what they're doing. Some terms would overwhelm anyone. *hugs*

Edited at 2015-02-05 10:49 pm (UTC)
Feb. 12th, 2015 12:14 am (UTC)
It was really fun to read all three (six) fics together! And honestly the good parts of fandom remind me a lot of the good parts of academia. There's nothing like chatting about slightly obscure stuff that really fascinates you!

And thanks for the kind words. I'm reading them carefully and taking note. M.
Feb. 6th, 2015 12:50 pm (UTC)
I love that you came back with full lists of recs! :)

I'm sorry that you're feeling anxious, but yes, do feel free to talk about it! For me, sometimes it helps just to realize that you're not alone having all those thoughts at wee hours.
Feb. 12th, 2015 12:12 am (UTC)
I loved the fact that I could reading *everything* at the fest. Usually fandom makes me feel as if I'm constantly falling behind. (Exhibit A: Reading221b, where there are already to 40-odd comments today!) Thanks, G! M.
Feb. 12th, 2015 09:20 am (UTC)
Aww, I say just jump in wherever you want. Sometimes there are giant threads that I don't even read, and I'll pick something quieter.
Feb. 9th, 2015 01:31 am (UTC)
Totally okay to panic a bit and feel insecure. I'm sorry that's what you're dealing with at the moment, though! I know it's no fun at all. Sending love and support.

(Thank you so much for your kind comments on the story posts. <3)
Feb. 12th, 2015 12:10 am (UTC)
*big hugs* And I had fun reading your fic! M.
Feb. 9th, 2015 06:52 am (UTC)
*HUGS* You've got this! January was that kind of month for me too, but no more. It's time to get back on track with the important stuff! Sleep, meals (not the same as fuel), fannish smut and cuddles with the S.O. stat!

And by all means come panic with us! It's oddly comforting/inspiring to know friends panic too - and then go on to just own RL!

Edited at 2015-02-09 09:59 am (UTC)
Feb. 12th, 2015 12:10 am (UTC)
Thanks, I. I'm not very good at talking about what bothers me, but it's comforting just to see your comment here. M.
Feb. 12th, 2015 04:39 am (UTC)
*Big HUGS* Yeah, it's really hard. Writing it down is almost harder some times too. I did want to let you know I'm cheering for you and that I'm here with peanut butter cups should you need some :)
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